“If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.” Jeremiah 29:13 There’s a word we should wrap our heads around: wholeheartedly. Why is it so tremendously scary to bring your whole heart to the table?
What if it’s rejected?What if it’s made fun of?What if it’s misinterpreted?What if they don’t like what they see?
So we approach cautiously, with pieces of our heart in hand, with no real intension of allowing all of it to be seen at any given time. And we hide. From others. From ourselves. From God.
Its no wonder King David wrote “When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy.” Psalm 94:19
I love how the New Living Translation says it: "When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer."
Here’s what I’ve figured out: a heart that is hidden is a heart full of doubt.
I have come to recognize that every season we find ourselves in is not always Gods decision for our life. Sometimes we are in difficult seasons because of our own choices and the condition of our hearts. If we want to fulfill our purpose, we must allow the Lord to search our hearts. So I prayed the Psalm 139 prayer. Let me rephrase that: I'm praying the Psalm 139 prayer...like daily.
Psalm 139:23-24 Search me, God, and know my heart;test me and know my anxious thoughts.See if there is any offensive way in me,and lead me in the way everlasting.
You know what He whispered back? “I’ll search your heart if you’ll search mine.”
Can I leave you with a few thoughts to ponder? Those thoughts we are most anxious about are very telling. Our greatest fears are also our greatest areas of mistrust. Oh believe me, I have plenty! So don’t feel bad. What makes you anxious or afraid? losing something precious? losing something that gives you value? not being seen or recognized? failing? Yeah, me too.
Give God permission to examine your heart: the good, the bad and the ugly. Kick out the fears, drain all the doubt, come face to face with sin and shame and own it. Then, send it out to sea and move on as a changed person.
In Brene Brown’s book, Daring Greatly, she says “Daring greatly means the courage to be vulnerable.It means to show up and be seen. To ask for what you need. To talk about how you’re feeling. To have the hard conversations.”
If there’s one thing I know about Jesus, it’s that HE’S SAFE.
So dare to ask yourself: What do others tell me? What excuses have I made for a really long time? Where am I most defensive? Allow God to see that beautiful heart of yours! Don’t just be edified by God, be changed by Him.